BWade
Grandma Took Me Home
To everyone who returned, stayed, or intended on returning...
My bad.
I took on the IWF for both the right and wrong reasons. The right, I loved the idea of the indy fed and felt it deserved a chance to live. The wrong, I dug the Douglas story line and was hoping to see it too completion. Yet, even after letting Douglas slip thru the cracks ... I couldn't keep up the day to day here.
When I took on the IWF; I had the time and energy.
We limped along at best and every week grew tougher and time grew tighter as my groups live appearances picked up steam and my engineering work boosted... all while still holding down a 40 hour work week installing Fire Alarm that grew exponentially hectic as the year drew to a close.
By the time I realized the main event match I was waiting on wasn't coming ... I was so far removed from the card. I couldn't even remember what finish I had called for and at that point I knew it was over.
And that is when I failed you.
Not finishing the card is one thing...
Not upping what I had ... another.
But not even finding the time or energy to get online and drop a note to let everyone know what was going on is reprehensible.
With my live schedule currently slower (yet subject to change in the drop of a hat) and my work life sort of back to normal I could possibly pick up where we left off and see where it takes us... but after what has gone on before I can't in good conscious do so.
By the time we got things going again ... if we could at all ... something would derail me again. I really dig on FW but I've spent too much of my life clawing away at this pipe dream of a independent music career to not pursue it after the hottest year we've ever had. 30 is coming for me, so I have one year and change to make a mark or I've got to hang it up.
Since things have slowed down and I could spare an hour or two a week on FW; I may wade the waters of CSWA again since they are getting going, and if anyone (Straws? Justin?) wants to (re)take up the reigns and attempt to right the ship I'd be into some Scott Douglas' appearances... but right now with so much uncertainly swirling around the time I can potentially put toward the hobby I couldn't put you guys through another restart and eventual hiatus.
So I deeply apologize to everyone I left in the lurch during my disappearance. I hope it hasn't sullied what little bit of reputation I have here.
Also, I'd like to thank brusch for his kind understanding words and Chad for asking via IM "you alive?"
Between brusch and being asked wether or not I live and breathe by the dead man himself ... lol I felt compelled to crawl back hat in hand and beg for you forgiveness.
Hope to speak with and "see" you all around. I had alot of fun and truly enjoyed running the IWF. And one day when it all falls down and music is no longer my main drive; I will redirect that energy to FW and in some form or fashion run an indy style fed.
Thanks for the read ... and again VERY sorry for the wait.
-Brian
My bad.
I took on the IWF for both the right and wrong reasons. The right, I loved the idea of the indy fed and felt it deserved a chance to live. The wrong, I dug the Douglas story line and was hoping to see it too completion. Yet, even after letting Douglas slip thru the cracks ... I couldn't keep up the day to day here.
When I took on the IWF; I had the time and energy.
We limped along at best and every week grew tougher and time grew tighter as my groups live appearances picked up steam and my engineering work boosted... all while still holding down a 40 hour work week installing Fire Alarm that grew exponentially hectic as the year drew to a close.
By the time I realized the main event match I was waiting on wasn't coming ... I was so far removed from the card. I couldn't even remember what finish I had called for and at that point I knew it was over.
And that is when I failed you.
Not finishing the card is one thing...
Not upping what I had ... another.
But not even finding the time or energy to get online and drop a note to let everyone know what was going on is reprehensible.
With my live schedule currently slower (yet subject to change in the drop of a hat) and my work life sort of back to normal I could possibly pick up where we left off and see where it takes us... but after what has gone on before I can't in good conscious do so.
By the time we got things going again ... if we could at all ... something would derail me again. I really dig on FW but I've spent too much of my life clawing away at this pipe dream of a independent music career to not pursue it after the hottest year we've ever had. 30 is coming for me, so I have one year and change to make a mark or I've got to hang it up.
Since things have slowed down and I could spare an hour or two a week on FW; I may wade the waters of CSWA again since they are getting going, and if anyone (Straws? Justin?) wants to (re)take up the reigns and attempt to right the ship I'd be into some Scott Douglas' appearances... but right now with so much uncertainly swirling around the time I can potentially put toward the hobby I couldn't put you guys through another restart and eventual hiatus.
So I deeply apologize to everyone I left in the lurch during my disappearance. I hope it hasn't sullied what little bit of reputation I have here.
Also, I'd like to thank brusch for his kind understanding words and Chad for asking via IM "you alive?"
Between brusch and being asked wether or not I live and breathe by the dead man himself ... lol I felt compelled to crawl back hat in hand and beg for you forgiveness.
Hope to speak with and "see" you all around. I had alot of fun and truly enjoyed running the IWF. And one day when it all falls down and music is no longer my main drive; I will redirect that energy to FW and in some form or fashion run an indy style fed.
Thanks for the read ... and again VERY sorry for the wait.
-Brian
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I enjoyed what we had goign on and what you were planning and maybe one day someone can pick up where you left off. Otherwise, I hope to see you in one of the leagues (CSWA, yes?