"Oh Dragon, my Dragon!"
(Lights up--it's a streetlight-marred night sky with the soundtrack of city-dwellers and running engines. The camera tilts downward to reveal the pipes and gravel of a commercial rooftop . . . apparently not even that tall, two or three stories above the ground, judging by the buildings across the street. Somewhere below, young men are whooping and their women are giggling. The loud, hoarse run of an unmufflered engine emans that someone has cosen to race 50 feet to the next red light.
Whyte Avenue and Fourth.
With a crunch underfoot, D! walks into the camera frame--wearing his simple black toque and carrying the TEAM belt over his shoulder, much as he would, one suspects, do at a black-tie dinner or a day at the beach--and smiles. The smile takes him through a quick, cursory inspection of his kingdom, lasts for a quick inhalation of South Edmonton night air, and the rest he spends on shooting a genuinely amiable look at the camera.)
D!: Karl.
Listen, we're so close to squaring off in the TEAM ring that I feel that I should lay some of your fears to rest. I step outside of myself, I leave my pride at the door, and when I look at our match that way, it seems like we've got so much in common. I know that compared to my other Week From Hell opponents, Devastation and Static, that I've got the worst possible chance to outthink you. It's humbling Karl, because I think forward to our match, and it seems like there's very little I can do that won't be completely in the moment. I don't have any plans for you outside of the ring, outside of "give 'till it hurts". And ask someone who follows NAPW, this kind of situation is foreign and scary to me.
But yeah, Karl, yeah . . . I AM a Mark. Damn skippy. I grew up idolizing guys like Bret Hart and Sting . . . big deal. So did you, so did Amazing, so did Ravager, so did Troy, so did the whole NAPW and EPW locker rooms. Maybe not Hart or Sting, but somebody. Somebody saw a wrestler work SO damn good, work SO damn hard to do what they did and that GOT ther ass into the ring. Me? It was watching wrestlers, it was watching Chris Benoit, here in Edmonton, his hometown, defend his title--I looked at that match, that moment and I said THIS:
"Me, too."
Not "Me, too" as is I wanted to be Champion. Not "Me, too" as in I wanted to be famous. Or loved. Or rich. Or on T-shirts. No, Karl, no! I wanted to be in that MOMENT, to be in that FIGHT, that is where I BELONG. To risk my ******* neck, to crawl in and out of my opponent's head--my epiphany was to stop THINKING about doing it and actualy DO it.
And so I dropped out of University. I was an English Major. True story.
My second match I became my company's Champion. My opponent was good, Karl. An East Coast guy by the name of Plague--ever heard of him? Plague was good, he was dangerous, but Karl, he chose to write me off and he paid the price. Oh, did he EVER pay the price. He grew so obsessed over beating me that he put his damn career on the line, and you know what? He LOST. A powerful man, a great career, and I ENDED it. Because while he could match me physically, he lost he MENTAL game. Time. And time. Again.
Now magnify that times nine months, Karl, and you have my NAPW experience. Because as hard as I'd tried, I could never, NEVER find anyone who felt the way about wrestling that I did. Either I get arrogant player-haters like Chris Casino, Static, or Evan Cartwright that STILL want to consider me a fluke, no matter WHAT I've accomplished, or now that I've blown away the locker room time and time again, guys like Uzi or Carter Owens who consider me to be an outdated, corrupt veteran. That's right, I can simultaneously occupy these slots in the SAME FED. People GUESS and they GUESS and they GUESS but they DO. NOT. get me RIGHT.
And then there's YOU, Karl. Dangerous. Smart. English. The whole package, so it would seem. And you size me up, with my skills, with my flaws, a World Champion in a regional fed, and you give me the same amount of respect that you give everybody else--no MORE, no LESS. You want to fight for the belt on my shoulder, not so you can go back to EPW and brag, but simply so you can prove to yourself, an yourself only, how GOOD you are.
Well.
(Another low-riding embarassment belches its way along somewhere in the background, so D! pauses to let it through.)
Well, I never, ever thought I was ever going to find another wrestler who I'd actualy RELATE to. I don't know if you genuinely care what I think, but honestly, the more I learn about Karl "The Dragon" Brown, the more I think I should be fighting on Karl "The Dragon" Brown's side, as opposed to trying to pummel him unconscious. It is a little sad for me, but then again, pummeling people is what we do. It's our currency. And really, there's no better way to get to know someone, don't you think?
But then, Karl, there are these differences. And if anything, it's this non-stop comparison that I can't stop myself from doing in my head that . . . CONSUMES me, Karl. I mean, you're so even-handed, so meticulous, so . . . bloody . . . Vulcan in your approach that I find myself questioning whether or not I wanted this after all. Whether or not I can be as even-handed as you, after all. Call it nine months of NAPW programming me, but . . . I can't BE that calm. I'm still the Mark, and I'm telling you right now, that isn't going to be a weakness. I give everything I HAVE out there because it thrills me. When I've got a brain that tells me I've got nothing left, I've got a HEART that pumps FIRE across my body and silences my reason. Try as I might, for what it's cost me, for the battles and friends that I've lost, I CAN'T stop bringing my pride into the ring. It's my strength, Karl, it's my fuel, my tank never gets empty. Do you understand me, Karl? I CANT. KEEP. CALM. I can't relax, and I WON'T relax.
I want to ROCK, Karl! I want to LOSE myself in the roar of the crowd, I want to get EXCITED. I want to feel what I felt my FIRST time, EVERY time. I'll leave you on your plateau, Karl, I'll let you sit up there like Zeus and watch us mortals--YOU'VE GOT IT! Let THAT be the differences between us . . . between the smartest man in wrestling, and a man that gives into his GUT, EVERY. DAMN. TIME.
D! versus D!, I'm gonna let myself LOSE. But as for "The Dragon" versus D!, pray that I do more than self-depreciate, pray that I self-IMMOLATE. Otherwise, the FLAMES, the FIRE, the SPIRIT . . . it's MINE. And I WILL push you to your limits, you bet your ASS I'll do it.
(He lifts the title off of his shoulder, and holds it before him.)
Prove to me I'm wrong, Karl. Take this belt from me and prove I'm WRONG.
(He slaps the belt back onto his shoulder and slows his breathing, still shaking.)
Prove to me I'm not already on the damn plateau.
(And the camera slowly fades to black.)